9:08 PM

I wanted to get this out before I went to sleep (bedtime is usually 8:30 PM); I didn't want to lose this thought/insight.

So, I've just been doing a lot today, thinking a lot, etc. And it got me wondering...

What all is required of me to to actually run this meta-experiment? I figure I have 5 core loops in order to be successful with this:

1. Build the business (infrastructure, offer, etc)
2. Write (blog and content engine)
3. Run the Experiments
4. Learn (JIT is the only way this will work)
5. Build the meta-experiment and all of the micro-experiments within

How do I know when to do what? Or how much of each to do? Or what order in which to do it? Just today, I did a lot of writing; posting some but not all yet. I spent half my day at Starbucks, while my kids were in school. But that was me in hyperfocus. That is not my normal day-to-day.

These 5 main loops are just my solo founder identity. This is not happening inside a vacuum. Life is happening and I. have at least 6 other persistent identities all vying for time or control (single parent, caregiver to mom on chemo, household manager, health seeker (in a weight loss study), friend, family member, not to mention just self (taking care of me as needed).

There's the tension of juggling just my solopreneur-related stuff within a limited timeframe and then the tension of juggling all of that within my full context.

And this is all while being an ADHDer. So, I wonder, is this all too much for me? And I am doing this all in public? What does this even look like?

And then, there are times when any one of those core loops is noise (distracting from whatever immediate goals) or signal (feeding the meta-experiment) and if you have ADHD, you know one's capacity swings day to day. So, it just seems like 5 loops = 5 full-time jobs + the rest of my life context.

Is this even possible? Am I doing too much? Am I up to the task?

But then I realize, I don't have to be up to the task of doing all 5 things at once. Just choosing the right loop for my current capacity and context, anchor to that, and everything else orbits around it, as supportive loops.

Anyway, I might not do much tomorrow because both my kids have doctor appointments and my mom has her weekly chemo on Thursdays. So..., yeah...